Focus on your hobby, relax your mind!!!!!

I have been away for ages again: almost two weeks now to be exact.  And yes, it was for a second cycle of ivf round. Injections, and egg collections, and frozen embryos, and wait, and the transfer, and wait.....This time positive. Up until now, all the hustle and frustration was just for the good news.  How would I now that the fear of losing it will overcome all the happiness????

The craziness started with the transfer of my healthy embryo.  I got obsessed with anything that comes out of my body within the last two weeks and I am glad we do not have a microscope at home.  Otherwise, I would be mad.  Right now, I am not totally lost.  With the help of my beloved ones, I come to a conclusion that, it would be amazing to continue our journey with a child, but at this point there is nothing else we can do anymore other than wishing for the best.

Obsessing over things that are way out of your control is a bad and consuming thing.  So what I should do not to check my panties for a smidgen of blood every hour????  Focus on HOBBIES.   Yes, more make up.

It is not wise for me to shop for anymore makeup at this stage in my life simply because  I am already in huge debt due to my treatments. Yes I know-- I will not look this fabulous ever again and I sincerely want everything form:

• Colour Pop ( even though some colors are shit) 
• Makeup Geek ( the most awesome powder formulation)
• Anastasia Beverly Hills ( the most trendy, makes me feel like part of the gorgeousness gang)

But is there really an end to this list?  C'mon!!!

So going back to shopping my stash tomorrow once I get my hair and eyebrow situation under control. I decided that small does of chemicals are less harmful that my fear.  I should do a video about "SHopping my Stash".  And to get ideas, I should watch "shopping my stash" videos.  See, time occupied.

I hope you all have positive, calm, experienced people around you and strong will to overcome your struggles!!!  Have a wonderful one!!!